How sharing my bulimia secret was essential for my healing

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Good morning Beautiful,

I have some super exciting news coming out next week about  the amazing The Pay It Forward Series: Notes To My Younger Self, I can barely wait to tell you about it!!

When I was asked to collaborate on the book, I was over the moon and thrilled to be involved an such an incredible project, right from the get go.

I thought by sharing my 20 year battle with Bulimia (yikkes- another vulnerable moment) with the world, I would help others, but I had no idea how chathartic it would be for myself.

At first, I approached my chapter from a place of having "healed" and thought I would be simply sharing my pearls of wisdom to the greater good of womenkind. You go girl!

"Easy. Been there. Write about it. Help Others. Job Done."

However, it was not as simple as this. On the contrary, it was far from being "Job Done" - it opened old wounds and new vulnerabilities.

As I dug deeper, and started paring back old layers from a new place, I had insights that I'd never had before. In opening the old wounds I got to heal them all over again, but from a stronger and healthier place adding a new dimension to my recovery. Awesome.

I was blown away profoundly by the experience of going back, from a fresh perspective, and I was excited to be able to use my experience to help others. 

I explain a bit more here in this incredibly spontaneous video....

Already a great believer our strength lies in our vulnerability, I also realised that sharing the story was not only a good thing to do, but, if you are willing and able, an ESSENTIAL thing to do.

For the person sharing and the person receiving. 

Why?
Because once you know the power is inside you and you have an unwavering belief that, as long as you keep putting one foot in front the other, even when the storm is blowing in your face, you WILL succeed.... and if you have the summit of the mountain in your sights, even if you are not there yet......Something beautiful happens when you to reach your hand down and help another women up.

For both of you.

By sharing our stories we disarm the power they have over us, and give hope to others. 

Knowing you aren't "broken" and someone else has been there too, helps.  We are all in it together and doing our best.

I am not my story but without it I wouldn't be here today, with my amazing husband, family and friends, a colourful and full, happy life, making a living doing what I love, in Barcelona. 

Having revisited and reprocessed my story for the book, I am more connected to myself and my work and have more confidence and conviction in what I am doing and why. heartcorebody is thriving and seeing the benefits in my clients has been phenomenal..It's coming from the heart. It all makes sense now and it wouldn't be possible if I were me without my experience. The the magic is the journey. It's the same for us all.

I would not have changed a damn thing. 

We don't want to erase our stories, but we need to know how to weave them into our hearts and present lives, so we are empowered by them and not the victim of them.

I am grateful for all that I have and all that I am. Life truly is a terrific ride and I feel blessed. 

Thank you so much for reading this far and being in my little community. It means so much to me that you are here.

I've never felt so vulnerable

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I'm writing again so soon as I am so excited and scared and vulnerable to be part of real live book that will be published in March.  I want to share it with you.

Last year I was invited to write a letter to my younger self as part of the Pay It Forward Series of books. Having written it and sent it off a long time ago, I had forgotten just how vulnerable I was in sharing this particular experience and how painful it was to read it back to myself.

In my chapter, I shared something that only a few people close to me actually know. This ‘thing’ started a sequence of events at the age of just 8 years old, which I now know set the entire path for my future in what I'm doing now. I cried reading it back to myself and felt really nervous approaching my mum who features in it, and actually sharing it with the world, as its so so personal to me. I have shared it because it's now the right time and if it inspires just one other person that there is light at the end of a very long tunnel, then I know I have done the right thing.

You and I have come to know each other over time, as we’ve been on this journey together. Many of you personal friends for many years. I value you so highly and I want you to know how grateful I am that you have been there with your support and encouragement. I care deeply that you are among the first to read it, before everyone else.

The story I am talking about is soon to be released in the forthcoming book, ‘The Pay It Forward Series: Notes to My Younger Self’. This incredible project has been bought together by Kezia Luckett and together with the other 18 contributors to this book, we are on a mission to pay forward hope, wisdom, inspiration and knowledge to more than 1 million women around the globe, taking them from feeling less than, to feeling connected, inspired and more than enough.   

I am 100% behind this movement to reach as many women as possible through our collective reach and we need your help too.

For every one book that sells, it has the potential to change eleven lives through the ‘Pay It Forward’ page at the front of the book. This page has been designed for each woman that reads it to write a personal note to the next woman she is going to give it to. Imagine the ripple effect we can create together when you buy just one book. Imagine the possibilities when you buy two or three. Tidal wave!

The book is going on sale for pre-orders really soon and I really appreciate and value your support in ordering at least one copy, so you can pay it forward to the women you care most about. Its an awesome project.

To secure your copy/copies, please visit:

https://womenofcontribution.lpages.co/register-interest-ntmfs/

Thank you so much

20 minutes of heartcorebody magic.. It's not perfect but it is awesome

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How are you? I am very well and excited to share my first offical heartcorebody video.. A heady, hearty blend of Pilates, barre and Kundalini Yoga. Oh My!

A mini workout followed by a mini work-in. 

20 minutes of magic that gets the heart going so your organs get a beautiful internal shower, feeling yourself come alive, toning and strengthening the legs and working with balance. A bit of core and deep abdoninal work and ending with a Kundalini Yoga meditation that re-oxygenates the bloody and balances your electro magnetic field. Puts a bit of va va voom into your whole body, mind and spirit.

Ignite your inner fire. It can't help but set you up for all you need to do today.

I'm a bit apprehensive because although the essence is there, it isn't perfect. I fluff my lines in places and there are a few cringy bits I would want to change..

It's not comfy seeing yourself on camera, I tell you! 

However, since my mistakes aren't crucial to the integrity of the work, and since I am among friends, I am going to let it slide. In the name of getting things done rather than perfect, I am bringing you the best I can today. Move on, learn from the experience and accept imperfection, that's what I say!

“Too many people spend too much time trying to perfect something before they actually do it. Instead of waiting for perfection, run with what you go, and fix it along the way…” - Paul Arden

Indeed, I will never be perfect although I will always try and deliver my best. And that's all any of us have. It's a bit more real and certainly more liberating.

"Perfection is a faux. Its a mask carved by our own poor esteem to hide who we really are and make others see what really isn't us" - Chinonye J Chidoule

So, in the spirit of striving to do your best, rather than aiming for perfection, give the video a whirl. You don't have to be super flexible or super spiritual to get down on the mat, to move and connect with your body. You just have to get down on the mat, move and connect with your body. And that's it. You'll love it.

This video is about heartcorebody, Pilates and Kundalini Yoga to energise, invigorate and nurture.

ROCK Your 2018

 
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I hope it all went with a bang and you are filled with motivation and excitement in the now, and for the year ahead.

Oooo..This is time of year always feels like a nice clean slate. 

I love the opportunity to start afresh. Where all my mistakes and foibles are yesterday's news, and from here on in, "I am going to be different and everything is going to be awesome". Having had a great 2017 of new beginnings, solid planning and organisation will move me forward.

"I will not procrastinate and waste time. I will get things done and make stuff happen". Oh yes I will!

I like this reset button on my life. I clean up my desktop. Make new folders that are fresh and junk free and new plans for classes and courses. Eager, organised and poised to have a prosperous year. So far so good.

"This year I will be super organised and efficient; A trailblazer in body mind soul wellness I will be of service" (fist held high in supergirl pose)

And then the feeling comes over me, among my new pens, notebooks, when I can't prioritise and go into overwhelm. I feel nothing is working and I'm not good enough. Everyone else is doing it right and I'm failing. "I can't do it". I am in Self Doubt central without a ticket.

I go back to my heartcorebody practice, I remember to be kind to myself, and take things once step at a time.

I notice how I feel, what my doubts might be about, and make peace with what is. I am super grateful to have all that I have, to be on this amazing journey and have all the people in my life that support me and teach me. I am really so thankful and in awe of every day miracles. Life rocks and I feel blessed. I reconnect  and remember that the universe has my back.. if I meet it half way. Faith is restored. I am enough. "We've got this" .. And theres the ticket.  

We don't have to change who we are or BE different. Feel gratitude, have faith for all that you are and know you are enough.

It's good to check in with what self doubt might be telling us, as negative emotions warn us when something is off kilter, but talking to ourselves badly and staying down on ourselves does not help. Of course, we can all do things differently to improve our lives, our health, our relationships (to ourselves and others), our situations, our finances - Absolutely yes, and we must take this responsibility. 

We are the captains of our ship, at the helm, co.creating our lives

Changing the way we think about ourselves and doing things differently based on what we have learned from our experiences is how life works. We already have eveything we need to make the changes we want to make for ourselves. Making a decsion and taking action, and not paying attention to self criticism is key.

Do you go straight to self doubt and think that you are doing it all wrong? Your parenting, your work, in your relationship, being a friend? Aarrghh!  Are you comparing yourself to others social media presentation of themselves? Are you judging yourself and others? 

Inspired by keeping us real in spite of self doubt, I am running a workshop Saturday 13th Jan at my heartcentrebcn in Barcelona (not yet online). Its called ROCK your 2018. Practical tools and heartcorebody practice to quickly turn self doubt and fear and into health, vitality and happiness. Get out of your head and into your body, bust through blocks, raise your energy and feel on your game for your amazing life.

Thank you!

You've got this.

 

Stay adjusted in the madness

 
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'Tis the season.. And I love it.

Millions of twinkling lights fill the main Barcelona streets on these chilly, dark early nights. There is an air of excitement; nostalgia for childhoods past that remind us of how things used to be. We yearn to feel the magic again, just a little bit. When you believed. We want to feel close to our families and friends and we crave to feel that warmth of the human spirit around us. From strangers too.

Whatever your faith or beliefs, this Light Fest, that spears through the European December darkness, is full of hope, cosiness and magic. It connects us, and we like that. It lifts us and we all feel better when we are helping others, spreading cheer and goodwill synonymous with this time of year. I'm up for that all year. Aren't you. I still believe!!

Despite all this goodwill, there is a usually a lot going on, and we can get run down more easily. 

We go out more, we spend more, we drink more, we eat more and, we argue more (might be just us) and, statistcs also show, we have sex more at this time of year too (I'm sure not just us again? haha ) and we put ourselves under more pressure.. 

Whether you've bought enough, done enough, or drunk enough (or drunk too much), you ARE enough.

We travel more, we worry more, expect more, and compare ourselves to other people more and, generally it can be a really hectic time. We can feel our energy deplete and our nerves can get shot to pieces.

If this is you..and It's often me..

..I have just the thing for you. Below is a Kundalini Yoga Kriya (set or sequence) that adjusts the naval point (An energy centre 3 fingers the below button and just above the pelvic area) back into alignment. This is important as our personal power, and our emotional centre is at our naval point. Think of it as our energy control headquarters.

Why does it need adjusting?

It's often off kilter and when it's off kilter we are off kilter. The centre of our own personal universe. When this is strong, in balance and in the right place, we have the power within us to withstand any storm, and not to get battered about the waves. We are resilient and have faith in ourselves. We know we will make it.

It's not a beginners set but if you are up for a challenge give it a whirl.

If you have any back injuries, special conditions or are pregnant then DON'T give it a whirl. Any doubts then check with your doctor and always listen to your body. There are 4 postures, each lasting for a minute, but you need to add a bit for rest time, where the body consolidates the work, between each pose. Breath of Fire is explained in more detail on my blog post Ego Eradicator

 
 

Put your back, ever so lovingly, into it.

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Aaah.. How are you? Its been ages! What month is it?

I completely missed September and October in the madness of getting, heartcentrebcn co.working and my bespoke but amazing heartcorebody  classes off the ground. I am only now coming up for the cool, crisp autumn air reminding myself to smell the roses.  Oh to be in the glorious Now... and then the Now. So aware of time, but sometimes I forget the moment.

Do you forget to remember the Now?

“Time isn’t precious at all, because it is an illusion. What you perceive as precious is not time but the one point that is out of time: the Now. That is precious indeed. The more you are focused on time—past and future—the more you miss the Now, the most precious thing there is.” 
― Ekhart Tolle: The Power of Now

But November? Already? Now? Yikkes!

I have been hunched over my computer for months and, now that the weather has turned colder this week in Barcelona, I already feel my shoulders rounding as I pull in my coat.

Hunching and rolling our shoulders foward is so habitual for a lot of us, whatever the weather.  

The more time we spend in front of the computer, tablets and phones and the more we are sitting in the office, or whenever our work entails slumping, the muscles on the upper back weaken. They become elongated, and the muscles on the pectorals become shortened and tightened, pulling us forward so our upper back, if not kept in check, gradually curves over. Also, everyday tension and stress manifests in the back and shoulders, so they travel up to our ears creating a super stressed upper back.

So keep the shoulders back and down, head held high, open the chest. Walk tall my friend.... (and get a comfortable handbag)... This helps confidence as well (walking talk, not the handbag haha) 

How is your upper back? Do you default to slouch? Do you spend hours in front of the computer? Here is a short video focused on the upper back muscles. Strengthening the muscles on your upper back, and lengthening the muscles in your chest, we can slowly train the spine into more natural curves and so the posture improves. 

Go on..put your back into it, and give this little set a whirl for an upright posture..

My new amazing centre and classes are coming soon!

 
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Hey! How are you? I hope you are super well and enjoying a little of bit of downtime this August. It's still so hot here in Barcelona (It's so hot our cactus died!) but stop talking of the weather, Laura, and tell your exciting news!!

I am opening my own little teaching space here in Barcelona.. Woooo!

I am working on my fantastic Pilates and Kundalini Yoga classes and my brand heartcorebody, and how I'm going to bring them to you in September!!! There will be more news in the next couple of weeks and I will be back in touch with info, offers and invites...Join my list and look out for stuff about heartcorebody @ heartcengtrebcn . Woooooo!!

Barcelona central, baby!!  Near Plaza Cataluyna......Awesome!

I will also be making some videos and gifting you a few promo classes online, so friends in distant parts can get some value and content, across the continents.

It's going to be rocking!

That's it for now. It's super exciting and I'm really looking forward to sharing, in the flesh, the fabulous technologies of Kundalini Yoga and Pilates practice to help you feel great, and experience your true, amazing, infinite nature. Way hey!

So if you are in Barcelona, and when I figure out the logistics  (and the technology haha), you'll get more info about promo classes and timetable etc and hopefully I don't bug those that are unable to teletransport themselves to class.  

But what about my bum and abs, in meantime?

This one isn't a secret...

A very good friend asked me what exercises she could do in 5-7 minutes for her bum and her tum.. I'm telling you what I told her, which isn't new, but people forget.

Move your body doing your daily stuff!! 

Everyday things done with attention.

We know the rules.. Use the stairs and not the lift, walk, walk, walk..etc. It's easy for me to say, as Barcelona is a very walkable city, but walking is so good. When you are walking uphill or upstairs, bring some attention to it - focus into using the glut/ hamstring connection (where your bum meets the back of your legs) and use these muscles at the back of your leg to power you first, instead of from the quadriceps. It feels a bit weird but it's a good exercise.

As you bring the shopping in from car, roll your shoulders back and down, engage the abdominals, lift the pelvic floor. That kind of thing. Lifting things properly, hanging washing, throwing the kids around; bring a focus to it and make it work for you.

And the 5-7 minutes of gluts and Abs?..

It's here. Its a bit rough as I thought it was going to be private, and I did it in one take...But it's fine and a nice little set.

Give it a whirl.  Thank you!!

 

Stay on your game for summer!

Hey. How are you? I am well and loving these light mornings!! I always get up early, that's just me, but this time of year it's sooooooo much easier than in the dark and in the cold (Mmm Obvious!). It's almost a pleasure to hear the alarm and bound out of bed.. Okay, now maybe that's going too far but..

Practising yoga and getting down to my work super early feeds my spirit and I feel good. 

Simple as.

Before I even put the kettle on I get down to some Yoga/Pilates practice plus a little meditation. It soothes me. My body and spirit come alive and I feel so grateful. Everything makes sense for me at this time. It's such a beautiful start to the day and sets me up. It's early, it's peaceful and I love it. I need it this way.

And then I need my Tea... My spirit needs this too ;)

How about you? What feeds your spirit? 

What do you need? It doesn't matter when you find time to check in with yourself, or how long you take doing it, but giving yourself a little bit of what you need every day really helps your emotional wellbeing. Obvs again but we rarely pay attention to it.

You're amazing but to keep going you need to be on your own team.  

I'm not talking massages or pedicures and stuff like that (although, of course, why not?) or super planned, organised rituals that are supposed to be for yourself, but actually turn into stressors.

Just things you need in the moment. Even just good, kind mental chats, can be enough. The ones where you can give yourself a bit of compassion even when things seem to be a mess. This is big for a lot of us, The Self Talk. Make it kind.

You are enough, doing enough, always and it's all okay.

And so, whilst working in my bubble of morning love, I found this gem I want to share with you, should your spirit needs some body TLC.

DO YOU YOGA are doing a Free 30 day Yoga Challenge with no commitment, or payment details needed. Each session is about 12 minutes long and perfect for anyone, anytime,

It's really user friendly and a great way to bring Yoga into to your day these beautiful summer days. Check it out!

https://www.doyouyoga.com/course/the-30-day-yoga-challenge/

Im not affilitated with them or anything like that, but since am working on my offline programs (Look out for news Barcelona friends!), and not online programs at the moment, I thought I'd let you know about it, should you fancy getting down on the mat.

Give the challenge a whirl - It's fun and it's free.