Self Care

When envy is not the root of all evil

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I want to talk about an unusul, strong emotion gave me a light bulb moment.

Envy..

Now, I am not up for envy or coverting the achievements and success of others. Although I lack a bit of self confidence, I feel blessed to be who I am and lead the life I lead. I love my adventure and the people in it, and I rarely feel I want what other people have. Envy and I are not well aquainted, thankfully. 

So when one day last week I felt a surge of envy that brought me to my knees, I was really surprised and totally out of my comfort zone. 

As a proud Ambassador of the Women of Contribulation movement I am about support, celebration, inspiration and being delighted by the lives and work of others, especially women, so I felt ashamed and really confused.

What could this mean?

I had been watching a webinar replay of a woman I admire, and became so emotional as she talked. Not only has she found her purpose, but was so in tune with it that when she spoke about it her energy could raise the roof, she had developed her own fantastic method and was serving loads of people with her work and making a good living doing so.  

"I want some of that!" "When will it happen for me", I cried like a baby.

Of course, I was absolutely so happy for her and still felt celebration, admiration and proud of a woman in her power, showing up in the world. I was happy she was living her bliss.

Absolutely Yes! This is not the point.

But I was in self judgement and comparision and it did not feel good.  I felt that I was failing. I felt that I was not on purpose, not succeeding and I wanted to be as sure as she was. I wanted to raise the roof when I talked about my work and I hadn't been recently. 

So, Envy, Thank you for the wake up call.

The strong emotion was a message that I was out of alignment. That I was pushing too hard against the grain, and not allowing. I wasn't being patient. I was in fear. Fear of success, fear of failure, fear or critcism, fear of not being good enough. I felt like I wasnt going to find my way.

"Envy comes from people's ignorance of, or lack of belief in, their own gifts"  Jean Vanier

I realised I had been teaching but not putting much time into my own practice, which I love and need, I realised I had been ignoring my intuition about a few things that weren't working and I was on my own path, it was unique and that's okay. I realised that everything is working out perfectly and the universe has my back if I let it.  I am good enough.

And since that moment of realisation and surrender I feel different, like something shifted. I feel more peaceful and faith is restored. My classes have gone well, including my children's classes which can sometimes be wild, and I have had lovely feedback from clients.

I changed some funky energy and I have Envy to thank.

There are no negative emotions only flags, signposts and alarms that give us messages. Staying in the emotion and dwelling, culviatiing stories and excuses is where the pain sets in..

Listen to the message, reflect and process.. Job done.. ..until the next time. 

"As Iron is eaten by rust, so are the envious eaten by envy" Anon

Thank you 

 

 

 

ROCK Your 2018

 
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I hope it all went with a bang and you are filled with motivation and excitement in the now, and for the year ahead.

Oooo..This is time of year always feels like a nice clean slate. 

I love the opportunity to start afresh. Where all my mistakes and foibles are yesterday's news, and from here on in, "I am going to be different and everything is going to be awesome". Having had a great 2017 of new beginnings, solid planning and organisation will move me forward.

"I will not procrastinate and waste time. I will get things done and make stuff happen". Oh yes I will!

I like this reset button on my life. I clean up my desktop. Make new folders that are fresh and junk free and new plans for classes and courses. Eager, organised and poised to have a prosperous year. So far so good.

"This year I will be super organised and efficient; A trailblazer in body mind soul wellness I will be of service" (fist held high in supergirl pose)

And then the feeling comes over me, among my new pens, notebooks, when I can't prioritise and go into overwhelm. I feel nothing is working and I'm not good enough. Everyone else is doing it right and I'm failing. "I can't do it". I am in Self Doubt central without a ticket.

I go back to my heartcorebody practice, I remember to be kind to myself, and take things once step at a time.

I notice how I feel, what my doubts might be about, and make peace with what is. I am super grateful to have all that I have, to be on this amazing journey and have all the people in my life that support me and teach me. I am really so thankful and in awe of every day miracles. Life rocks and I feel blessed. I reconnect  and remember that the universe has my back.. if I meet it half way. Faith is restored. I am enough. "We've got this" .. And theres the ticket.  

We don't have to change who we are or BE different. Feel gratitude, have faith for all that you are and know you are enough.

It's good to check in with what self doubt might be telling us, as negative emotions warn us when something is off kilter, but talking to ourselves badly and staying down on ourselves does not help. Of course, we can all do things differently to improve our lives, our health, our relationships (to ourselves and others), our situations, our finances - Absolutely yes, and we must take this responsibility. 

We are the captains of our ship, at the helm, co.creating our lives

Changing the way we think about ourselves and doing things differently based on what we have learned from our experiences is how life works. We already have eveything we need to make the changes we want to make for ourselves. Making a decsion and taking action, and not paying attention to self criticism is key.

Do you go straight to self doubt and think that you are doing it all wrong? Your parenting, your work, in your relationship, being a friend? Aarrghh!  Are you comparing yourself to others social media presentation of themselves? Are you judging yourself and others? 

Inspired by keeping us real in spite of self doubt, I am running a workshop Saturday 13th Jan at my heartcentrebcn in Barcelona (not yet online). Its called ROCK your 2018. Practical tools and heartcorebody practice to quickly turn self doubt and fear and into health, vitality and happiness. Get out of your head and into your body, bust through blocks, raise your energy and feel on your game for your amazing life.

Thank you!

You've got this.

 

Stay on your game for summer!

Hey. How are you? I am well and loving these light mornings!! I always get up early, that's just me, but this time of year it's sooooooo much easier than in the dark and in the cold (Mmm Obvious!). It's almost a pleasure to hear the alarm and bound out of bed.. Okay, now maybe that's going too far but..

Practising yoga and getting down to my work super early feeds my spirit and I feel good. 

Simple as.

Before I even put the kettle on I get down to some Yoga/Pilates practice plus a little meditation. It soothes me. My body and spirit come alive and I feel so grateful. Everything makes sense for me at this time. It's such a beautiful start to the day and sets me up. It's early, it's peaceful and I love it. I need it this way.

And then I need my Tea... My spirit needs this too ;)

How about you? What feeds your spirit? 

What do you need? It doesn't matter when you find time to check in with yourself, or how long you take doing it, but giving yourself a little bit of what you need every day really helps your emotional wellbeing. Obvs again but we rarely pay attention to it.

You're amazing but to keep going you need to be on your own team.  

I'm not talking massages or pedicures and stuff like that (although, of course, why not?) or super planned, organised rituals that are supposed to be for yourself, but actually turn into stressors.

Just things you need in the moment. Even just good, kind mental chats, can be enough. The ones where you can give yourself a bit of compassion even when things seem to be a mess. This is big for a lot of us, The Self Talk. Make it kind.

You are enough, doing enough, always and it's all okay.

And so, whilst working in my bubble of morning love, I found this gem I want to share with you, should your spirit needs some body TLC.

DO YOU YOGA are doing a Free 30 day Yoga Challenge with no commitment, or payment details needed. Each session is about 12 minutes long and perfect for anyone, anytime,

It's really user friendly and a great way to bring Yoga into to your day these beautiful summer days. Check it out!

https://www.doyouyoga.com/course/the-30-day-yoga-challenge/

Im not affilitated with them or anything like that, but since am working on my offline programs (Look out for news Barcelona friends!), and not online programs at the moment, I thought I'd let you know about it, should you fancy getting down on the mat.

Give the challenge a whirl - It's fun and it's free.